I am writing christmas cards now and I feel like crying :((
This christmas maybe the last christmas spend with some of the poly friends. not all of them will stay by your side... well, this is life but I hate to see that :(

and, I always thought that my sister wedding is in 2 weeks time but no, is in 1 week time! omg, i suddenly dont look forward to her wedding.

I know I should be happy for her to find someone good.
but, I will miss her. I have shared a bedroom for 19years and I am going to have a bedroom all by myself. It just feels so empty.

I will miss,
kicking and cursing her when she kicks me in the middle of the night.
the short talk with her before we sleep.
throwing all the extra pillows and soft toys on her bed (so that I have extra space for myself) and she will scold me for that.
when either of us cry, we will walk to the room to check each other out. we care but we dont express ourselves.
disturb her so that she cannot sleep.
wearing her clothes out and she will grumble when she wants to wear that.
farting damn loud just for her.
and many many more.

I can never find all these either in boyfriend or friends.
It is just so different without her in this house.

I will miss you jiejie, and hope that you will have a very very very blessed marriage. I know you will be happy (: 你是最幸福的女人 (: